December 25, 2006 - It's Christmas Day - and for the first time this month, I'm actually feeling good and enjoying my day! Couldn't ask for a better way to celebrate Christmas eh?
Reason for the mood change? I guess it's because I have finally come to terms with things that have been happening over the past several weeks. I mean, I'm still sad about it - but I think I have come to terms with it, and now it's time to move forward and see where things go from here.
I got some awesome gifts this year. The highlight: an ipod nano - seriously, I think I've wanted one for a long time, but it's one of those things that I will never buy for myself (sorta like wii?). But the thought that went to buying it, and then taking the time to put songs on it and everything - now that's thoughtfulness :) and I promise I will use it everyday and everywhere. A million thanks to you - for more than just the ipod really (you know who you are).
It's going to be different from now on - and somewhat scary. What a year it has been though.
Monday, December 25, 2006
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
Do I know it's Christmas afterall?
December 20, 2006 - As much as I try to ignore it, the signs of Christmas seem to have noticeably gotten stronger over the past few days. I mean it makes sense, given Christmas is only a few days away. It's not that I'm trying to skip Christmas this year, it's just that I'm not really in the mood to celebrate. It still just feels like every other day to me.
Even Christmas shopping didn't particularly excite me - and I didn't even have to spend any of my own money (thanks to my collection of gift cards). The mall was packed, the line ups were long, and the shopping felt more like a chore. What happened to the good old days when Christmas shopping was one of the highlights of the holiday season? And to top it off, I'm STILL not done. I better get my act together over the couple of days.
As for my lack of Christmas spirit? maybe going home will help. I guess I can always just sit in front of my parents' Christmas tree and stare. I can't remember the last time I looked so forward to going back to Markham!
Even Christmas shopping didn't particularly excite me - and I didn't even have to spend any of my own money (thanks to my collection of gift cards). The mall was packed, the line ups were long, and the shopping felt more like a chore. What happened to the good old days when Christmas shopping was one of the highlights of the holiday season? And to top it off, I'm STILL not done. I better get my act together over the couple of days.
As for my lack of Christmas spirit? maybe going home will help. I guess I can always just sit in front of my parents' Christmas tree and stare. I can't remember the last time I looked so forward to going back to Markham!
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Countdown to Christmas
December 17, 2006 - Wow, I'm like blogging everyday now. There could only be two reasons for this: 1) I must be really really bored; 2) I'm running out of people to talk to and blogging is the only way to get things out. I have to admit though, I'm really enjoying this return to blogging (the last few months have produced very few blogs).
So a week to go till Christmas - is it just me or does it NOT feel like Christmas at all? I guess the warm weather doesn't help. But then again, ever since I've graduated, the holidays don't really seem all that big anymore. I mean, part of the reason why I loved celebrating Christmas was because it marked the end of exams and the end of term. Now, Christmas is just a couple of days off at work. Well, not that I'm really in the mood to celebrate this year - given the current ugly situation I'm in now.
It's the end of the weekend again - as I mentioned, my parents celebrated their 30th anniversary this weekend. At dinner last night, this bombshell was dropped:
Me: So hey Flo, when you go to HK, you're going to have to buy me a new cell phone.
Sister: Didn't you hear? We're not going anymore. Dad's canceling the trip and refunding the tickets.
Me: What? (completely in shock) Why?
Dad: Well since you couldn't join us, it wouldn't be much of a family trip anyway.
Me: What? (still in shock)
Mom: We're thinking of moving it to November. That will give you a few more months to save up. Plus it would be cheaper then.
Me: Wow (speechless).
Shocking - especially since I was actually pretty bummed out for awhile that they decided to go without me (after I told them there is no way I can afford to go so soon after paying off my condo). So now there's a possibility that I'll be going in November. While that is nice, chances are I probably won't go in November anyway - especially now that I really like this idea of going on a few short trips instead of using up all my holidays on a big trip to Asia. Hmm...I think my grandmother is going to be disappointed though.
Speaking of trips - there's that Vegas trip in February that I'm worried about. Part of me just don't really want to go anymore. But because the airline tickets were a gift from my grandmother, I couldn't change the dates (since they were booked using air miles). After doing a little bit of research this weekend, I found that it's actually cheaper to do a 3 day side trip to somewhere along the West Coast then to spend all 6 days in Vegas (all of a sudden my interest went up). So where to? San Francisco is probably my first choice, though L.A. is also a good possibility. Seattle and Vancouver are a bit farther. But because there is a possibility that I will be going by myself, SF just seems a little bit more friendlier than L.A.
So the last week before Christmas - I gave it some thought as to how I'm going to be spend my holidays. I could sit here and be depressed and sad, or I could at least try to do things that I might enjoy. First thing on my list: Christmas shopping - and wait for it - for myself. I found over $250 dollars worth of gift cards lying around my apartment tonight. So what's better than to buy stuff for myself, but without using my own money?
But until I get the chance to hit the mall (I'm thinking Yorkdale), tomorrow is yet another work day - with a work Christmas party at night. Hopefully both will go by quickly though...
So a week to go till Christmas - is it just me or does it NOT feel like Christmas at all? I guess the warm weather doesn't help. But then again, ever since I've graduated, the holidays don't really seem all that big anymore. I mean, part of the reason why I loved celebrating Christmas was because it marked the end of exams and the end of term. Now, Christmas is just a couple of days off at work. Well, not that I'm really in the mood to celebrate this year - given the current ugly situation I'm in now.
It's the end of the weekend again - as I mentioned, my parents celebrated their 30th anniversary this weekend. At dinner last night, this bombshell was dropped:
Me: So hey Flo, when you go to HK, you're going to have to buy me a new cell phone.
Sister: Didn't you hear? We're not going anymore. Dad's canceling the trip and refunding the tickets.
Me: What? (completely in shock) Why?
Dad: Well since you couldn't join us, it wouldn't be much of a family trip anyway.
Me: What? (still in shock)
Mom: We're thinking of moving it to November. That will give you a few more months to save up. Plus it would be cheaper then.
Me: Wow (speechless).
Shocking - especially since I was actually pretty bummed out for awhile that they decided to go without me (after I told them there is no way I can afford to go so soon after paying off my condo). So now there's a possibility that I'll be going in November. While that is nice, chances are I probably won't go in November anyway - especially now that I really like this idea of going on a few short trips instead of using up all my holidays on a big trip to Asia. Hmm...I think my grandmother is going to be disappointed though.
Speaking of trips - there's that Vegas trip in February that I'm worried about. Part of me just don't really want to go anymore. But because the airline tickets were a gift from my grandmother, I couldn't change the dates (since they were booked using air miles). After doing a little bit of research this weekend, I found that it's actually cheaper to do a 3 day side trip to somewhere along the West Coast then to spend all 6 days in Vegas (all of a sudden my interest went up). So where to? San Francisco is probably my first choice, though L.A. is also a good possibility. Seattle and Vancouver are a bit farther. But because there is a possibility that I will be going by myself, SF just seems a little bit more friendlier than L.A.
So the last week before Christmas - I gave it some thought as to how I'm going to be spend my holidays. I could sit here and be depressed and sad, or I could at least try to do things that I might enjoy. First thing on my list: Christmas shopping - and wait for it - for myself. I found over $250 dollars worth of gift cards lying around my apartment tonight. So what's better than to buy stuff for myself, but without using my own money?
But until I get the chance to hit the mall (I'm thinking Yorkdale), tomorrow is yet another work day - with a work Christmas party at night. Hopefully both will go by quickly though...
Saturday, December 16, 2006
How to Save A Life
December 16, 2006 - Well what's new - crappiness continues yet another day. Seriously I think I'm getting really sick and tired of it. If I don't make a decision soon, I think I will either: 1) go insane; 2) kill someone; 3) kill someone because I have gone insane. Enough of this melodrama already - make a freakin decision - and dont' be afraid to go through with it.
If only it's that simple of course - then I wouldn't have dragged it out for over a week. Maybe I just need sometime alone - away from it all - and just think? Calling Markham...
During the week, I have been going through my iTunes almost nightly - adding and deleting songs, etc. This is the one that I have been listening to almost daily. I just really really like it - maybe it's the lyrics, maybe it's the Grey's Anatomy connection, or maybe it keeps reminding me of the person who sent it to me in the first place. Here's the first verse (sounds like a re-enactment from my life...):
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
It's my parents 30th anniversary today - how they managed to be together after 30 years is actually really amazing (and honestly, somewhat surprising too - given how their bad times have been really really bad). 30 years - and I can't even manage 3...kinda gives you some perspective eh.
If only it's that simple of course - then I wouldn't have dragged it out for over a week. Maybe I just need sometime alone - away from it all - and just think? Calling Markham...
During the week, I have been going through my iTunes almost nightly - adding and deleting songs, etc. This is the one that I have been listening to almost daily. I just really really like it - maybe it's the lyrics, maybe it's the Grey's Anatomy connection, or maybe it keeps reminding me of the person who sent it to me in the first place. Here's the first verse (sounds like a re-enactment from my life...):
Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came
It's my parents 30th anniversary today - how they managed to be together after 30 years is actually really amazing (and honestly, somewhat surprising too - given how their bad times have been really really bad). 30 years - and I can't even manage 3...kinda gives you some perspective eh.
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